Where is she?

Over a year ago, I started this blog, and I haven't written anything since.  I could say it's lack of time.  I could say it's lack of skill.  Maybe it's just lack of me--that better me that I wanted to find.  How much does looking for and finding a better me depend on my surroundings and the people in it?  Can I find the better me if I stay where I am and with the same people?

Some of these questions don't matter much because I'm unwilling and/or unable to leave my surroundings and some of the most important people in my life depend on me so I can't leave.  There are days like this one, though, when I want to escape to a warm, semi-humid climate and be free of all my responsibilities.  Not that I want to be lazy.  I have many passions--education, travel, and service to others.  I just feel trapped by my circumstances some times.

In all of these feelings, I know I still have God.  Praise God that I have him.  Praise God that he has me.  Praise God in my suffering.  Praise God in my misery.  Let everything that have breath praise the Lord.

How am I going to praise him today?  I don't know, but I'm going to make it anyhow.

Praise God!

Almost Christmas

Today I succeeded in yelling and spanking my youngest son.  Today I succeeded in making our first gingerbread house with my four children.  Today I didn't grade a paper or a final.  Today I made a wonderful breakfast for my children.  Today I didn't give enough hugs and kisses.  Today I exposed my unborn child to too much yelling, anxiety, stress, and screaming.  Today I just want God's peace.  Would you pray for me today?